Here are the first couple of images I've worked on so far. I'm getting to the others right now. I have a bad habit of procrastinating on my artwork, but it's so satisfying to see the finished product. Even if I never make money doing art, I will always do it for myself. I have to throw myself into this drawing that I'm doing for Dave. It's really important that I get it done before a year has passed, and even though there's plenty of time, I don't want to keep pushing the date back. It will make Dave really happy if I get it done and give it to him before July. I owe that to him for the way he has stuck by me during the last year.

Depression is like being underwater. Like you're swimming in molasses. Trying to move forward, every step takes effort, and everyone else seems like to be walking on air. It's not always easy to be so upbeat in this blog, but I do it because I need to stay positive. I know I'm in a better place than I was 6 months ago. The future still seems a long way off, even as I can see it coming over the horizon. My biggest goals feel no closer, even though they are. That's what's so difficult about being depressed. It's hard to think it's worth the effort to do things, because you can't see how it will benefit you in the long term. Sometimes it's easy, and I feel great. Sometimes I feel like I accomplished nothing, even if I worked hard all day. It's a slow process, but I have to keep a positive outlook in order to keep moving forward.

I need a little bit more time to cement my new habits, and then I'll be ready. Sometime in the near future I'll have passed a big milestone and be able to say that I did something I set out to do months ago. I'll see the result of hard work, and how it paid off, and that will help motivate me towards other things. For now I have to keep doing the day to day stuff, reminding myself that I have to do it even if I don't feel up to it. It's really hard sometimes, but it's gotten easier and easier the longer I keep it up. I may never be a person who's always happy, but I refuse to ever again be a person who's never happy.