I finally got past the middle of the page on this stage of my drawing, and I flipped it over to start on the other side. Instead of going from the bottom up I decided to do it from the middle and work my way down. I spent two days straight helping Jim put in some underground wires and pipe for his gate/security system. He wasn't going to go into the office, so he offered me as much work as I could handle. I put in 11 hours digging the first day, and about 8 the second. We were pretty much finished by the end of the day Tuesday, so I didn't go over there yesterday. I was completely shot anyway, although surprisingly I'm really not that sore today. I guess working out has paid off. I thought I was going to be in tremendous pain, because at the end of the day Tuesday I could barely hold a shovel anymore, my wrists and hands and forearms were so sore.

I should be getting my tax return soon. I'm excited about that, because I'll be able to take another huge bite out of my debt in one shot. The next few weeks I'll be making quite a lot, because I've been working extra hours for Besim lately. There's really not much to talk about since I've been so busy. I've thought more about it, and I do want to be careful what kind of outside influences I allow into my life, but I'm starting to think that it might not be a bad idea to join a dating site. I think that pretty soon I'll be as ready as I'm going to be to at least start talking to new people and maybe go on a few dates. I'm not looking for anything but a serious long term relationship, and I have no interest in flings or random sex. I just have to be careful that I don't get sucked in too quickly. Any relationship that I get into is going to go very slowly, so that I can make sure I'm dating someone that I actually want to be with, and not just settling. It's obvious to me that my feelings aren't going to go away, and it's just something I have to bury. Just move on and lock that hurt away. It was a waste of time and energy to keep trying to fix things.

I still have to find a day to go talk to my GP about medication. I know I'm putting it off because I'm nervous about it, partly because I'm afraid it won't make a difference. It may take a couple of weeks for me to get around to doing it, but I'm definitely going to give it a try. I've made that a firm decision. Nothing else new to talk about, just work work work.